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I Can’t Believe I’m Here
: Rosa Manriquez
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The seventh grader
warily opened the envelope that arrived in
the mail addressed “To the Parents of Rosa Maria Manriquez.”
The letter said something about summer school.
“Oh my God, I’m flunking,” she thought.
She had been running a not very impressive C average—somewhere
around 2.5-at Calvin Simmons Middle School in Oakland.
Although no one in her family set all that much stock
in grades, Rosa was afraid to show the letter to her
parents. She took it up to her room.
She read the letter again. This time, it didn’t sound so ominous.
She was being invited to a meeting about a special summer
academic program for Hispanics. But she was puzzled.
“I’m flunking most of my classes. Why are
they inviting me?” Rosa didn’t care much about
school and had no expectation of finishing high school.
She’d also been hanging out with the wrong crowd-many
of them gang members who were doing “really stupid
things”—cutting school, fighting, “jumping
people,” tagging and generally heading nowhere.
Rosa finally shared the letter with her mother, and
together they attended the school meeting. Whatever it was
that Rosa saw that night, it changed her life. “I was
excited. It was something different. I really wanted to
go.”
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From then on,
her schooling was an academic fairy tale. Her grades went
from C’s and sinking fast in the seventh grade to straight
A’s in the eighth. B’s were so rare from then on that she
can remember each one-like the time she slipped to a B+ in
gym because she jumped wrong in a gymnastic exercise. It was
a complete transformation, and, she recalls, “everybody was
shocked.”
The Hispanic Academic Program that Rosa attended that
summer between seventh and eighth grades has since been
superseded by the Pre-Collegiate Academy, which she later
attended. Both are strict college-prep programs run by the
East Bay Consortium of Educational Institutions, part of the
state’s California Student Opportunity and Access Program,
with added funding from other state affirmative action
programs, such as the Science, Mathematics and Technology
Teacher Pipeline Program, and from private sources. The East
Bay Consortium, or EBC, is a collaborative venture of 19
local public and independent educational institutions formed
to provide intensive educational enrichment for low-income
and ethnic-minority youth. The Pre-Collegiate Academy serves
primarily Hispanics and African Americans.
Rosa’s grades were so poor that she just barely made the
cut for the Hispanic Academic Program. Her social crowd was
flirting with danger. Rosa, said the program’s assistant
director Monica Montenegro, “could have gone either
way.”
Five and a half years later, Rosa has just finished her
first finals as a freshman in poli sci at the University of
California at Berkeley. There are a lot of firsts these days
for the 18-year-old. The other day, she was sitting in a
Berkeley coffee house for the first time and sipping her
first mocha bianca as she described the 180-degree turn in
her life expectations. Looking around her at the student
coffeehouse crowd, Rosa summed up her reaction to the
changes in her life: “I can’t believe I’m here.” Small
wonder. Rosa’s parents were elementary school dropouts. She
is the first one in her family to complete high school, much
less attend college.
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The fresh and
open young woman comes from a Mexican American family with
deep-rooted traditional values. They struggle financially,
especially since her mother became disabled while working as
a hotel housekeeper. Her mother now stays home with Rosa’s
younger brothers. Both of her parents immigrated from
Mexico-her mother at the age of 15, her father at 20. Her
father left school to help his family by going to work.
Today he is a chef in an Oakland restaurant, and Rosa says
he didn’t see much reason why his oldest daughter should
finish high school, since he figured she was just going to
stay home eventually, do household chores and have
children.
But Rosa has her own ideas for her future-like law school
or journalism or teaching. When she started down the path to
university, Rosa realized that “I respected my mother, but I
didn’t want to become her. I wanted to be myself.”
She thinks that her father respects her drive to get an
education, but that he can’t tell her so. “What I’ve done is
prove him wrong. I think he likes that, but his machismo,
his male ego, doesn’t allow him to say that. College is not
in his background-it’s all new in his family.”
Like immigrants from other countries in other
generations, Rosa sometimes struggles to reconcile her two
worlds. She stays home with her family on weekends, but her
parents have seen her dorm room only when they first dropped
her off in the fall. They don’t understand her new life-her
surroundings in hip Berkeley, her college classes, even her
daily schedule. “I’d like them to see what I experience
every day, so I can talk with them about it,” she says. “I
have no one in my family to get advice from-study habits or
whatever.”
For that, Rosa has turned to a variety of friends,
mentors and advisors in special affirmative-action and
enrichment programs, most recently her “big sister” in the
Incentive Award Association that gave her a $24,000
scholarship to attend Cal.
It was the Hispanic Academic Program that first helped
Rosa bridge the gap between her lowered expectations and her
incipient dreams of a different future. In that first
intensive summer program after seventh grade, the teachers
and tutors made learning fun for her. She was tutored by
mostly minority college students, some of whom she now
passes on the UC campus. The students in the Hispanic
Academic Program did a lot of writing; they studied their
culture and history; they talked about college and what it
entails.
“I was really pumped up after that summer program,”
Rosa says-so pumped that she went to the seventh-grade
algebra teacher she had hated (“and whom I love
now”) to ask to take her course over again. The
teacher pointed out that she had passed the course with
a “C,” but Rosa said she really didn’t
understand the material. The strong-willed girl insisted
on taking the class again. This time she got 100 percent
on her quizzes and an “A” in the course.
It’s still a source of great pride to her. Rosa
came out of that first summer program with more than
academic resolve. She also realized that being part
of her old aimless social crowd “was not me.”
Rosa’s Cinderella story continued through the eighth
grade and subsequent summers. EBC offered regular support
and community-building activities, including after-school
and Saturday programs for the roughly 200 PCA students.
There, Rosa learned about computers and received pre-college
advising and went on field trips to colleges throughout the
area. Some of the students who went on those field trips had
never previously ventured beyond the borders of Oakland.
Rosa took special pleasure in the math and science
instruction.
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There’s a heavy
emphasis on math in the Pre-Collegiate Academy, says
Montenegro. “Math is the gatekeeper that keeps students from
attending college. If they don’t take the right math at the
right time, they’re out of sequence with the university
requirements.” And getting kids to college is the main goal
of the program. Rosa received mentoring-often from youths
who had preceded her in the program-and she attended SAT
preparation classes and was offered other opportunities she
could never have dreamed of.
Rosa explains that courses in SAT test-taking techniques
are especially important for those who grow up in households
where English is not the primary language. Her parents speak
Spanish at home, though Rosa often speaks to them in English
or “Spanglish.” When it comes to school work, Rosa says, “We
write papers in words we don’t use every day. The SATs are
made for the white population. They’re used to hearing those
words and analogies, and they come from better schools, with
more experience in European literature and less in minority
authors.” It’s a cultural imbalance that affirmative action
programs like the Pre-Collegiate Academy help to
rectify.
After her sophomore year, EBC recommended Rosa to the
nonprofit Summer Search program, which gives a boost to “at
risk” youths with leadership potential, offering them
experiences they would not have had otherwise. That summer
Rosa went on a three-week mountaineering and white-water
rafting trip in Oregon. She’d never been camping before. “I
came back with a different perspective,” she says, and she
began taking on student leadership positions at Fremont High
School. The next year, Summer Search sent Rosa to Cornell
University for six weeks of courses, allowing her to get a
foretaste of the college experience.
Rosa became involved in Fremont High’s celebrated Media
Academy, a magnet program featuring hands-on experience in
radio, television, magazine and newspaper production. In her
junior year, she worked there before school, during lunch
and after school, first as managing editor and also
photographer for the school paper, The Green and Gold. The
following year she became the paper’s editor-in-chief.
She also honed her photographic skills as a volunteer at
the Oakland Museum, taking pictures of urban gardens. Some
of those photos were exhibited in the museum’s restaurant.
Rosa relishes the memory of seeing her pictures on the wall,
of getting recognition as a photographer, and then “seeing
ourselves on TV” when the exhibition drew media attention.
Her parents and uncle joined her at the opening.
Rosa capped her unlikely high school turnaround with her
selection as class speaker at graduation and the
announcement of her university scholarship.
Though the EBC programs are targeted at specific
minorities who can most benefit from its services, assistant
director Montenegro says the program will have to change its
admission requirements next year because of Proposition 209.
With a broader pool of applicants, the program will have to
exclude some Hispanic and African American students who
would previously have been enrolled. Among them will surely
be other Rosa Manriquezes-seventh graders with borderline
grades, dim prospects, dead-end dreams…and boundless
potential.
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